“Who in the world am I? Ah, that's the great puzzle.”
― Lewis Carroll , Alice in Wonderland
A few months after my first Theta Healing session, I enrolled myself on a "Self Love Journey" -- a serendipitous sign up to a coaching program that I could only describe as heavily guided. My coahch who had such a beautiful vibe is someone I followed on Instagram, and when she posted about her new program, I asked for a clarification on the cost, and the next thing I knew, I was filling up forms and sending thru my Paypal payment. It did not disappoint -- the learnings I had with April still helps me to this day.
It was also around this time that I have started taking up classes for Theta Healing. My healing was definitely fast tracked --- whatever came up in my sessions with April I was able to work on with Theta Healing as well and so everything was resolved much quicker.
A few weeks into the program though, I felt that there was such a disconnect from what I am learning. And so I prayed. I asked God, "I know that all of this is for me, but it feels like it was not going through to me. Why do I feel this way God?" And a thought came to me -- I realized that I did not know who I am. I have always described myself as a daughter, a sister, an employee -- but to ask me to know who I was without a link to other people -- I didn't have an answer to that.
And so I prayed again. Weeping, I closed my eyes and said "God, I do not know who I am-- please tell me who I am" and then I heard, a loud, clear voice in my head -- "You are Ayen. You are a designer. You love plants. You love to travel. And you, are a daughter of God". And with that, it felt like my world had stopped shaking, and everything that was circling in my head and my heart had calmed down. I have nothing to fear. I am His daughter.